Work 7:

"I was certainly in a state! 'clogged with wishes' I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished I could wish that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there" Elisabeth Elliot

so, completely and utterly true, and how much simplier it would be if we could just wish to wish what God wanted us to wish and nothing else.

right now, more then anything i would love to travel. go and spend 2 months overseas, not necessarily on a missions trip, but not just travelling just because. but with some purpose... and what is my purpose in this... Discovery.

to experience another culture, another way of living, another perspective on life and God.

to discovery more about myself, try new things, conquer fears, and see things that i never would have if i had merely stayed in Canada.

to discovery more about God, see some of his amazing creation, (like seriously could you imagine mediation on God's word, working on memorization while floating down the Amazon in a canoe, or flying over the Andes. ) It would be incredible!

and i think i'm also hoping that if i could go and do that, then maybe my restless spirit would settle down and be content with going to school getting a degree and spending the rest of my life working so that i can have a nice comfy house in a safe neighborhood and live a nice comfortable predictable life, the american dream, thus fulfilling what everyone wants and expects me to do with my life.