been a while.

okay so i realize that i haven't written anything in a long long long time. so quick update:

-the symphony was amazing!!!!! I absolutely loved it. 

-the next night, boy 3.. okay  i am getting tired of using numbers.. lol. steve freaked out at me for sitting by kevin, and makes a huge deal about us hanging out and whatnot. which got really annoying and everyone told him to lay off because nothing was going on but he wouldn't listen.

-me and steve had a dtr(define the relationship)... and then another... and then another. all of them ending very quickly with me telling him that we would never date, ever! just friends, that's all!!! i can't even say that he doesn't take a hint very well because its not even hinting anymore its me telling him straight up -i am not going to date you!!!. but whatever.

-steve starts saying that me and kevin are secretly dating. which we are not. we are just really good friends!

-the way steve has been acting frustrates me... insanely much!!! we talk and work through things. for like the umptinth time!!!!(seriously he does something that pisses me off, i get frustrated and annoyed. he asks why i am mad at him. i explain to him. he promises to never do it again. anywhere from 5 minutes-2  days later he is doing the exact same thing. i get annoyed, confused he asks why i am mad... and this cycle repeats... about  3-4 times per week!! its rather annoying!) so we talk and worked through things, even gave him a written list of the things that he does that annoying so much so he understands why i am getting so frustrated.

-almost a week later, steve sends me a long facebook message to tell me how he doesn't like one of my friends and goes on a rant about how he doesn't get along with her and doesn't think that i should be hanging out with her because it might ruin my friendship with him if i am hanging out with her too much.

I freaked out and told him he had no right to tell me who i can and cannot hang out with(he already tried once to tell me not to hang out with kevin and then started telling me i couldn't hang out with this other friend) which = more fighting... lots more fighting.

luckily for me i have good friends who were there for me.(these also happened to be the friends who steve didn't want me to hang out with... lol)

during the next week steve sent me on average 3-4 facebook messages per day!!! every day!!!! comments on my facebook status and post on my facebook wall.

as well as a total of 4 handwritten notes left in my mail box at school.  he tried to talk to me several times, including waiting outside my classroom door until i left class and demanding that we talk. he sent me messages from other peoples facebook accounts(namely Cameron's)

all of this just got me very very annoyed. he wrote me a two page letter(this is separate from the other notes that he left) to explain his side and told me that he was sick of me refusing to talk to him and that he was going to give me space and wouldn't talk unless i initiated the talk. 10 minutes later he comes and finds me and tells me that the 'next two times we hang out you will have to initiate it, because i am sicking of having you say 'no' to me'... 4 hours later i was hanging out with Kevin and Cam, and he walks in and tells me that 'we need to talk. Now!' i reminded him that he told me he was going to give me some space and let me initiate talks. he gets mad and tell me i have 1 week to initiate a time for us to hang out and talk and after that he is going to find me and we will talk. and then stormed off.

this happens the night before i go home for my brothers wedding(which was amazing by the way!!!!!) and i am gone for three days(there goes half my week). during which time he sends 4 facebook messages(all of them on friday... because saturday morning internet stopped working at the school) I told me family about him... they think he is a stalker.

when i got back to school sunday he told me that we needed to talk. so we talked.(he initiated this talk, and my week of space was not up yet!) he said he didnt see why i was mad at him and there was nothing wrong with the way he was acting. i told him he needed to lay off and stop following me around and telling me who i can and can't hang out with and that my family thinks he is a stalker!!! i think that scared him a little bit, lol. so hopefully things will be good now... but we shall see. we have talks and they get us no where and then he insists that we need to have another talk, and it just gets really frustrating. and he promises he will do this, and won't do that, and then within an hour has broken that promise... over and over and over again. and then wonders why i say i don't trust him anymore.

but whatever. its now Easter break, everyone has goon home. there is about ten, or so, of us on campus this weekend. so its very quiet and relaxing and no drama. :) Hurray for Easter!! and,

God is good,  no matter how crazy life gets, he is still there, and he never changes, never. God is good... all the time!!!

He has risen... He has risen indeed!