i got all of my reading done for the entire month of november done this week... thats like about 6 or so hours of just straight reading. plus lots of crazy emotional stuff that went on this week, and various little stresses that life tends to have. it was also production week, meaning that there was drama plays going on and dinner theatres for the community going on at the school, which is awesome but it makes everyone so much more busy. then there was the game of apples to apples(which i described in my last post lol) and then theres been the stress of this stupid report thats due on monday(aka tomorrow) i've been working on the research part which was oh so much fun! i love reading a whole bunch of books(we are not allowed to use internet for our assignments cause its not reliable enough) and then i was super unbelievable excited because i was going to have someone stay in my room this weekend for the campus visit days and then stuff happened and that person couldn't come and i was sad... :(
and yeah then other stuff was going on...and then i had a really long talk with my brother about some stuff, and then there were a few minor misunderstandings that i got stuck in the middle of that needed to be worked out... another talk with sam about stuff at which he gave me a set of personal question in regards to certain situations, that i needed to pray and think about and answer.. so i worked on that the one night.
and then other stuff happened, and people were sad/hurt/upset/confused by that stuff that was happening, and i had to make a bunch of promises and keep a lot of secrets from ppl but then ppl found out and then were shocked that i knew/upset/mad that i didn;t tell them first. then person i made promise to was mad because that person thought i had told other person when in fact i didn't and other person was mad at me for not telling.. then i was sad/upset/frustrated because two ppl i cared about were mad/upset/frustrated with me... or so i though.... but slowly we got those things worked through... though there are still issues and i still have to make, keep and break some new promises... i have a feeling that the next few weeks coming up will be interesting also in regards to all that has happened.
i also started hanging out with the girls from one group who are kinda clique sometimes.. i had never really talked to them at all before this week and then all of a sudden they started taking an interest in me and inviting me to hang out with them, and like they knew that a lot of the people i'm closest to at school and hang out with the most are 'adopted family members' (like micky my adopted mother, and sam my adopted brother) and the one girl who sort of seems like the leader of the group... sort of but maybe not, they just seem clique.. like their all really nice its just.... but anyways the one girl was like 'hey shantel you should adopt me as your sister. Shantel i want to be your sister!' and i was like... okay.
please don't think that bethany is clique and like full of high school drama cause its not.. there's only one group that is actually kinda clique and even they are getting better.. and most of the chaotic drama in my only half involves the school, like its mostly outside the school, about other things... i really can't say much more about it... again i've got a crap load of promises. some i need to keep, some i need to break. (although its getting better, me and cherise has a girls night which was so much fun and got to spend some time with my parents today which was good)
but if you think of me at all in the next few weeks maybe pray for wisdom for me in the choises that i make, as well as for strength from God because i know that i can't deal with everything that has been going on latly by myself or my own strength, and i need to stay strong these next few weeks as i work through stuff and also try to support others.. so yeah, if you think of it an want to pray for some of that stuff that would be great.
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