decisions decisions.

i hate making decisions! and at the moment i have a few that i need to make. i have no clue what to do regarding a few little things right now... so i can go to my cousins wedding in two weeks or home for thanksgiving.
wedding pros and cons:
free trip
get to see all of my family(including grandparents) that i haven't seen in a while.
would miss half a day of modular classes(and i don't know how big of a deal that would be)
possibly have to listen to my uncle rant about dislikng me beloved school.
but because i'm riding with them i would get to hang out with my closest cousin Heidi who i adore and haven't seen in so long! so all in all i really want to go to the wedding.
but i figure if i go to the wedding then i won't come home for thanksgiving.
and i do want to go home at some point in time. like i really miss my friends here so i do want to come home sometime... but i guess there is always term break in november... yeah i might do that...
so miss half-day of modular, go to wedding... thanksgiving yikes!... come home term break... stay at school from then on come home xmas. you guys come visit me at youth advance... then come home for dan's wedding then school. then summer break...
man oh man do i have an obsessive need to have everything figured out right away or what!
but here is my dilemma... if i go to the wedding What do i do on Thanksgiving? here are my options... stay at school-NO!!!- go to a friend or family from outside of school, go home with my roomie. or... dun dun dun.. here's where things get complicated... seriously complicated. go home with a certian friend. so i personally think it might be really awkward and difficult to explain to people why i would be going home with this guy for thanksgiving. like seriously. but he keeps asking me if i'm ever not going home on a break if i would go home with him, and like because he is sick he can't travel all the way home by himself. so if no one wants to go with him he won't go home at all because it isn't safe for him to be travelling all that way by himself in case something happens... so i don't know. i would feel terrible about saying no because it could mean that he won't get to go home at all and see his family and friends. but... like i know it would be completly safe going home with him for a weekend, and he told his rents about me an they're all excited and hoping i come visit sometime... which... i dunno. i'm so old fashion in some ways. like i find it really weird to be spending so much time hanging out with a guy. like we are not dating. we are not, i repeat not dating. we just hang out a lot and, yea. i dunno what to do. like... i just don't know... and a few people here keep teasing me and their all 'oh shantel, you know thats how relationships start.. pretty soon shantel it won't be just friends' like i don't want to date! and definatly not in my first like month of school. like i don't even want to have the possibility of a relationship as an even semi plausible thought at the moment. if that makes sense. like i'm worried that i'm getting in over my head and like we are just friends and i'm sure that we Will stay just friends. it's most likely that me, being a girl is over thinking everything and looking into and trying to find meaning in meaningless stuff. and overreating. but like i'm not used to hanging out and spending this much time with a guy. like when me and brandon were 'dating' we didn't hang out this much or talk about the things that we talk about... is that a bad thing, i really need to know... any one have any advice for me... ps. please don't tell my siblings or anyone else who might freak out over this.