I survived!!!!!!!!

Well Millar youth edge was freaking awesome!!!!!!! but then i came back to frontier...
why is it that i can have a really good time but its almost always followed by crap.
so yeah....
well i get home and mom is all like 'your friend is mad at you!' im totally confused and so yeah i guess something happened and and whatnot, church got involved and everything went slightly haywire and whatnot, i'm still at youth edge well this is all going on. so i come home to this as its basically ending. which wasn't much fun, so even though i had monday and tuesday off, it wasn't to enjoyable cuz i just wanted to go talk to my friend and make sure that everything was okay... but yeah good news is that we got that all basically worked out so i don't think that it will be much of a problem anymore... i really hope not....

so yeah and then my rents have been going on about this summer 'when i work at honeybee'!!!!!!! What!!! see i thought we had a somewhat mutual agreement, or at least an understanding that i was not working at honeybee, but was in fact going to be spending my summer working at camp!!! so this basically came out of no where. like it makes sence and all, i should work there, it would be good for me, it also pays better then camp which is important if i'm going to collage. but i really don't want to work at honeybee, i want to go to camp. and im sure we've been over this a thousand times. but good thing is that i think i've kinda started to work this out. i spent some time praying, and i've given God my summer, whether i get to go to camp, or end up stuck at honeybee.(i'm really hoping for camp though!) so yeah i guess we shall see how that all ends up.

and yeah then last night sucked big time. and i dont really know how thats gonna all work out. im not even really sure what to say, how much to say or how to even say it..... but yeah....... umm.. hang out with one friend for a bit cuz she was a bit upset. the new kid make a really rude comment to her about her nationality, so she was kinda pissed off. so we walked around and ranting about that. then went to the rec center cuz her younger sis was stuck working with the new kid, so yeah she asked me to stay cuz he was creeping her out and whatnot. so i agreed to stick around. so yeah that was a lot of really stressful, weird, and ackward moments.. and a lot of crap.... and yeah. the night didn't really go to well at all. so umm.. yeah i'm hoping that this works out, but i don't really see how... but yeah i stayed at the rec with her until about 11, which was definatly passed my curfew, but i really couldn't leave.
................ oh i miss camp... so one of my campers just signed onto msn, and started talking to me... i miss her! she's like 'Hi. Your so beautiful. i miss you!!!!!!!!' ....................... i really want to go back to camp!!!!!!
but yeah hopefully everything works out. yeah nothing really bad happened today, it was mostly just a bit of stress from dealing with crap this week, mostly from last night. and i found at that Ann from the rec center board still hates... though i have no clue whatsoever as to why she hates me. but i guess she does........
and right now daniel is getting me some funky thinger called genius for my ipod!!!! i love my brother!!!he's wonderful!!!!!!! i think things are getting better. like right now i'm talking to a camper, and my brother. i got a bit of a chance to talk to my cousin who i havent seen in forever. got to talk to lucas for a bit which was nice... and theres youth tonight and we get brownie explosion for snack at youth. yes things are getting better.... ........ i just hope that they stay this way and that next week will be good......