frustrated

kind of frustrated right now.... i'm running on about 4 hours of sleep... my older brother(whom i totally look up to,) is leaving...... my correspondence crap still hasn’t come. i dont know why im all freaked out over my stupid class. but i am... i think im just about ready to stress out over anything right now... and last night sucked...... big time. well really it wans’t that bad, it could have been a lot worse.......... so dad's been feeling sick, from what mom told me, i thought he had the flu or something. then i come home after school and mom is all like dad's going to the hospital tomorrow, for some test, possibly surgury. we think he has gull stones or something like that. so its not really anything to serious so far as i know. but i guess dad was in a lot of pain and decided to call the ambulance to take him to swift, thursday night, just before 7. ( instead of mom driving him at there at 6 in the morning for an 8 oclock appointment. ) so breann and kim came, and did all thei fancy stuff, then loaded him onto the strecher(spelling?) which i dont know. even though i knew he was fine, just seeing him on that thing being wheeled out of the house kinda freaked me out. like this is my dad! i luv my dad! he's awesome i dont know what i'd do without him. and like he's fine and all, but it just freaked me out. a lot. like what if something was seriously wrong, or he was really really sick..... everyone says he's fine, and like i know that he will be, but it just scared me.... so i went to my room and put my headphones on a listened to some music... and then i thought i would do what i always do whenever anything goes wrong…. Go over to my best friend’s house. She’s always been there whenever I need her. To talk, comfort, encourage, distract, or whatever. Like shes always been there when I need her…… and so I thought I would give her a call.. and realized that she wasn’t here anymore….